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“You realize that after you move, our group of friends will only get together at weddings and funerals.”

This statement brought tears to my eyes. My friend Janelle is moving out of state, I’m moving to Pittsburgh, Jim and Chrissy are already in New York City. Our group of friends will not see each other for quite some time. My years of crazy college life are over. (And crazy does not even begin to describe some of those nights.) We all survived. We have grown up. The thought of a keg party now makes me cringe.

I was watching TV the other day, as my roommates were moving out. Dan came in to give me a hug and say goodbye. As he turned to leave he took one last look around the apartment and said, “Well, I guess this is the end of college.” Again, the tears welled in my eyes. I had been so busy making arrangements for the biggest change of my life that I hadn’t even thought about it in an emotional sense. This is the end of an era for me- an era that consisted of the best years of my life. When I pack up that last load on Tuesday, I will be leaving a town that treated me well.

I’ve watched people come and go for the past several years. I was always a bit resentful. Everyone else was moving on, why couldn’t I? I will soon know what it feels up to pack that last box into an overloaded car. I imagine that the sound of the trunk closing will set off a flood of emotions that I can’t even begin to prepare for. I’ll remember calling my roommate from the next room because we were both too lazy to get out of bed. I’ll remember having far too many cocktails with Holly at the bar after work. I’ll remember drinking twelve packs of American beer with Jesse, Jim and Dan while watching Blind Date. I imagine my mind will be filled with hundreds of flashing random faces and moments that for some reason my brain decided to capture as a brief memory. Maybe it’ll be Brian smoking a Bidi, or Angie’s beautiful smile. It may even be someone I have forgotten about- someone who entered my life only briefly, but made an impact. I don’t know how to prepare for this moment- but I’m really looking forward to it (tears and all).

The weirdest thing is saying goodbye to people I know I will never see again. How do you say, “Have a nice life?”

This weekend will be my last at the best job I have ever had. I am at that restaurant almost every day of the week- even when I’m not working. I live upstairs in a beautiful 50’s style apartment. Whenever I walk through the restaurant, I have to stop and talk to four or five tables. I see them on a daily basis. I know about their jobs, their children, and whatever seasonal ailments they are suffering from. I have waited on some of the sweetest people you’d ever meet. My regular customers are going to be very hard to part with…as are my coworkers. And no matter how much I hate to admit this, I will even miss Lambrose coming in everyday at 9 pm. He will no longer tip his hat and say “Party at April’s house” with a thick Greek accent as he heads of to his Budweiser waiting on the bar.

As for not seeing my friends except for funerals and weddings, it’s all too true. I’m not good at picking up the telephone or writing an email. Each person from my group of friends has started a life outside of college. Slowly they are all getting real jobs, nicer stuff and healthier relationships. We will gradually become less important in each other’s lives. A few times a year we may get a phone call… “somebody’s pregnant…there was an accident…we’re getting married”. Close bonds will turn into just fond memories. However, if for whatever reason we are all brought together by some dramatic event, everything will be brought back for a day. The memories, the sarcastic humor, and excessive drinking will all ensue- if only just for a day.

Janelle was right. It’ll be a long time before we are together again. So we’re going all out this weekend. Jim and Chrissy are leaving their Manhattan lives for the weekend and Jesse and Dan are coming in from Pittsburgh. It’ll be our last chance to party together in this college town. I plan on taking my camera this time.

Goodbye small town. I’ll miss your charm.

There have been to many times I have been left behind. It’s finally time for me to do the leaving.

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